July 12, 2017
I have no idea what to write about tonight and know I need to show up to get back to my commitment to myself posting Monday, Wednesday, Friday. Yikes, if I say it out loud I now not also told my blog tour guide/coach…I have told you also, readers who I am grateful to for showing up. Big deep breath. It’s all good. I sometimes show up with a knowing. A point of launch of some words or a photo or a combination of both. “Not today Zurg,” as we used to say in Toy Story 1 days. Now I not only feel like I don’t know anything, I also feel old. That was a long time ago.
Here’s the thing. I know it rained harder than it has in a good long while in Boston and the thunder and lightning felt like there was a serious bowing alley above us in the sky. I know that we had leftovers for dinner and that is a small miracle in this household and that’s that. I know while I rang my friend to catch up this afternoon out by the gardens there was a gorgeous goldfinch lingering beside me. I know I got some surprising news that will work itself out and could be a big deal if I let it be one. I know I gave Halo Top ice cream another chance because they gave me a free pint coupon and it isn’t really that bad. I am stubborn about ice cream. I know it is my sister’s birthday and while we usually aren’t together at this point in the summer I miss our June getaway to our childhood beach with our kids. I know that music makes doing the dishes and folding laundry SO MUCH BETTER. And that Pink is in Atlantic City tonight because I talked to a dear friend on her way there.
I also know that these late nights are not the time for me to be scrolling through my photos looking for a knowing and inspiration which are full of my sweet brown dog. That is best done in daylight. I also know that a wise friend reminded me that I know grief though losing her, and often the familiar feeling is related to something else.
I also know there is light and love to shine. Prayers for a dear friend with a new diagnosis. An old friend from growing up in town and wanting to get together for our annual visit. Better than some of the other “annual visits” we all know and love.
Above all, it was a good day. And now we rest. “The more I know, the less I understand…”